You can feel GREAT!!! coming out of my cave

Laura Parks age 44, mother of 4 children ages 20, 17 and 12 yr. old twins.


Jus and I

Update April 28 2011

Started taking jus about feb 15 2011

I have been on every kind of anti-depressant offered since 1998.

I used to cry all the time couldn’t get out of bed to go to work I have been fired for being late too much

I was so sad

Slept all the time I was not at my job

The high cholesterol medicine and blood pressure medicine had too many side effects so I quite taking them the end of 2010

The feel of clothes on my skin made me irritable and cranky

I didn’t want to live and didn’t know why

Everything was miserable it took every ounce of energy I had to drive across the street to buy groceries

I couldn’t cook meals for my kids

Couldn’t clean the kitchen, bathrooms, do the laundry without being in physical mental and emotional pain

I would cry just feeling the weight of all I had to do in a day, I had to hide in my room under the covers, and life was just too much

I just couldn’t do it.

I would wash dishes on the weekends and then have to take a two hour nap

I couldn’t help my kids with their homework or even get them to school on time

I did not have the energy to care

I couldn’t take myself to the doctor to get my medicine changed, my mom would drive two hours to take me in, and I would be in my pajamas

I couldn’t talk or think for myself, my mother had to tell the doctor what was going on with me and that my anti-depressants weren’t working, again.

I don’t think I ever smiled

I thought everyone in the world hated me and that I didn’t even have one friend

I would not talk on the phone or send letters or emails

I would never go visit people nor have people to my house

I was a social recluse

I let people treat me like a doormat because I had no self-esteem or power to say what I needed or wanted or how I felt.

I have been dancing and out danced a 22 yr. old, she got tired, and I wasn’t sore the next day

I can run up and down stairs

My hands do not hurt from arthritis

The psoriasis in my ears is gone

I talk calmly to my children

I do not shake

I can laugh

My blood pressure is down ten points and I have lost five pounds

I had my cholesterol checked yesterday and am anxious to get the results

I wake up before the alarm rings and look forward to each day

I have renewed my friendships

I enjoy my family more than anything

I call my mom to see how she is doing

I call my brother to tell him that I love him

I went camping with my son

I don’t cry when the bottle of laundry soap falls and spills all over floor, nor do I yell at my children to clean it up while I run crying to my room

I call my children and spend time with them

I want to go to Mexico on a real vacation

I feel 20 years younger! click here

I can dance for hours, run up and down stairs, and my kids say my skin is so soft! I have been living in a cave of depression for 25 years years and it feels so good to be alive again!

Got My Dancing Shoes On

There is more fun than one girl can handle at all these dances at some terrific venues in this area! The price is so affordable and the live music is so great!

The ones I go to most often are The Refectory http://www.therefectoryrestaurant.com/
and
The Red Lion
http://maps.google.com/maps?q=-&sll=45530443,-122661149&latlng=45530443,-122661149,11752391508997972130

There are dinners and dances for the holidays that look especially fun.

tackling

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzvZvSN2Y3k

my boy tackling another on youtube but the ref gets right in front of the camera

I have never wanted to slash somebodys tires so bad

My kids had to hold me back...

Todays football game our kids are doing GREAT!! We were proud happy jumping up and down excited!! It was the best game so far. The boys were playing great and winning!!

Then this a**hole coach from the other team tells the refs that since my boy limped off of the field a little while ago that he couldn't play the rest of the game. My coach, our coach, went over to talk to the refs and the other a**hole coach and the rules state that if a player is carried off of the field, they are not allowed to play the rest of the game for their own safety.

I am serious I was ready to rip his face off. You think that football players are tough you just wait and see what happens when they piss off players mothers.

We had another player even earlier in the game that really was carried off the field but went right back out and played the entire rest of the game and the other team said NOTHING about that kid. That kid is a great player, too! Our whole team is!

Our team is red hot!! Your team is diddley-squat.

All the parents said it was cuz my boy was doing so good and that really IT WAS FOR THE PROTECTION OF THE OTHER TEAM. Because we were winning and they were afraid they were going to lose WHICH THEY DID LOSE ANYWAY and SET A BAD EXAMPLE because the entire stadium KNOWS WHAT THAT COACH DID. A**hole.

At the end of the game when everyone was leaving the other coach walked past my daughter and she said, "Great game, when #11 was playing!" #11 is my boy of course, her brother.

I am still freakin' pissed. That other team is our in city rivals and we will beat them every game every year for the rest of these boys time in this district.

football, baby

I spend a minimum of 20 hours a week either at football practice, at a football game, watching football games on TV and watching football movies. We have watched Invicible twic every weekend since the beginning of August.
My son is an awesome player!! He is not afraid to do what needs to be done on the field. Best of all he totally loves the game!! He dreams about it, talks about it, gives me endless replays of everything that has ever happened at every practice and every game.
The only thing missing is my favorite Sunday afternoon game celebration activities.

isn't this the sweetest little face?

This is our puppy, I just love her to bits and pieces!!

Football used to just amuse me

Now I am not just amused at the game, I am totally confused!!!

Watching my sons practice there is so much to learn and it is so involved I don't have a clue whatg is going on!

I play football on Xbox so maybe that will help a little.

I was a football cheerleader in high school, but I really didn't have to know a thing just jump up and down a lot...

His coach thinks he is tough and awesome!!

next to NASCAR and NFL this is my biggest event this year

http://www.achorusline.com/land/info/mario?gclid=CKf5qMnE75QCFScuagod93sQrg

As someone that grew up taking dance lessons, performing and competing until the age of 20 and is now over 40 and can only dream about dancing, going to see A Chorus Line is the biggest event of my year! I got to play around in local perfomances of A Chorus Line, Guys & Dolls and Grease. Oh and Alice and Wonderland but not a musical version. It was small town stuff but we were good and had a blast!!
I am so excited I can hardly see straight! I will laugh, cry and get chills all over!! I will remember this forever!

don't know what all the fuss was about

don't know what all the fuss was about, I still have internet...

is it possible?

I really, really just want to live in a kinder and gentler world.

bye bye free wifi

http://www.redorbit.com/news/technology/1443285/portlands_wifi_network_making_an_exit/index.html?source=r_technology

no more free wi-fi

as soon as those towers go down next week, there will be no more me online. dangit. I have a good time on here!

this cracks me up

8th grade graduation

High School Graduation

The coolest person to hang with and the coolest place to hang

http://www.pgepark.com/stadium/about/

geez, I don't have a picture of the coolest person to be with, but take my word for it - he is the hottest/coolest person to be with! He always makes sure I have a fantastic time. He even arranged for a full moon. I give him all the credit for that, too. :)

Two free tickets for third row seats in the VIP section with access to the guest lounge with free snacks and an awesome worms eye view of the Portland Beavers baseball game at PGE Park, two round trip tickets on Max - $8.00, beer, margaritas and nachos - $30.00, holding hands under a full moon - priceless.

where is the nearest abbey?

on her way to become a nun.

i wish.

on her way to prom.

the funniest thing I have seen prior to that

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OBlgSz8sSM

the funniest thing i have seen in 3 weeks

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/?cl=7769005

mothers day three years ago...

http://mawgawrita.blogspot.com/2005/05/last-supper.html

dumbest kid in town

A young boy enters a barber shop and the barber whispers to his customer 'This is the dumbest kid in town.... watch while I prove it to you.'The barber puts a dollar bill in one hand and two quarters in the other, then calls the boy over and asks 'Which do you want, son?'The boy takes the quarters and leaves.'What did I tell you?' said the barber. 'That kid never learns!'Later, when the customer leaves, he sees the same young boy coming out of the ice ream store. 'Hey, son! May I ask you a question... why did you take the quarters instead of the dollar bill?'The boy licked his cone and replied 'Because the day I take the dollar, the game's over!'

workin' overtime

ok, I think I buy too much pizza. I walked in tonight and heard a round of, "Hi Laura!" I just feel like if they know me by sight and my first name, I go there too much.

Our new puppy!

http://www.lhasaapsosavvy.com/1/lhasa-apso-ebooks.html?gclid=CNqE0Z7QipMCFQY_agodenhEgg
she is much cuter than this little pup. Check out the story...
My daughter's senior prom is in a couple of weeks. Her boyfriend put her favorite candy, Swedish Fish, in cupcake papers all the down the stairs to the outside and then down the sidwalk. He was at the end of the trail and was wearing a t-shirt that had on the front, "Will you go to prom with me". On the back of his shirt was printed, "If no, then give me my puppy back." He was holding the cutest little Llaso Apso puppy I have ever seen. She is black with a little bit of white and what a personality!! We have so much fun with her, she is just precious and we all love her very much!!